Moving On

Guess who decided to show up this morning, on exactly day 28? Yup, you guessed it - mother nature. Yuck. So, now we know that round 7 was a failure. This is the 8th month of trying for us, and it is getting so hard to stay positive, keep faith, and look towards the future. I can't help but be consumed by internet browsing right now. How long does it take? Why so long for me? What do I need to be doing differently, if anything? Do I need to be worried yet? Why when we're doing everything they say to do - basically having sex every other day from the time I finish my period until now - do I still continue to not get pregnant? Why do my breasts start to hurt and continue to hurt if I'm not getting pregnant? Why have they not done this in the past?

Guess who needs a life adjustment, and needs to restore her faith? Yup, you guess it - me.

This is one of my favorite songs, and I'm going to have it on repeat today....

"I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth"

~Praise You In This Storm by Casting Crowns

"I lift up my eyes to the hills- Where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip - He who watches over you will not slumber; Indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you The LORD is your shade at your right hand; The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm - He will watch over your life; The LORD will watch over your coming and going Both now and forevermore."
~ Psalm 121